battle passes made me optimize my free time

I used to open multiplayer games because I wanted to play them. Very old fashioned behavior. Now I check daily missions first. Get three shotgun kills. Play two matches as a support. Complete one round on a map I hate. Then the weekly tab says I need fifteen more games before reset, so apparently this is my evening. The clever part is I paid for the pass. Walking away feels like wasting the money, even when playing feels like wasting the night. At tier 63 I stop seeing matches. I see progress bars. A win is good unless it used the wrong weapon. A fun mode is bad if it gives slow XP. Limited skins make it worse because the unfinished page will disappear. I will never equip most of them. Doesn't matter. Empty box bad. Filled box good. Caveman brain satisfied. People say battle passes give games structure. They do. So does a work schedule. I finished the last one with two hours left and felt relief instead of happiness. Bought the next pass anyway. Please study my brain for structural damage.